Finally found my real self.

For more than couple of months, I admit that I’ve struggled much in adjusting to certain changes which caught me helpless and hopeless. I don’t know why I acted too much in terms of  changes. I can’t blame people judging my attitude towards things that they may actually seem to believe that I’m too fragile and weak. Honestly, it doesn’t matter to me anymore. Thinking about others perspective won’t make me move forward to my opt destination. Wherever it will be, I promise, I will never fail myself. Whether others will like it or not, it’s up to them. Anyway, I always have to sink in my mind that I own my life and no one’s entitled to invade my decision and moreover, influence me to step aside what I think is right.

Sometimes I realize, it’s better to be alone or maybe to be surrounded with people who cares, motivates, encourages or simply just LISTEN to whatever concerns I have in life. Some people, directly or indirectly, conscious or unconscious, just putting you down by lowering your self-esteem. I’m so tired of listening coz my mind is getting terrorized! I can’t find any term to describe it so pardon me with my word! I feel like being poisoned or caught a contagious disease slowly killing me! Exaggerated isn’t?!

Settling in a risky situation won’t give any good to me. I would rather prioritize the most probable chance than give a “close to impossible” a shot which will make or break me. I might sound like weird, not that I’ve got less sleep, but I’m quite sure where I’m heading this time. My head quite spinning around at the moment like I have hangover but hell no!

OoooH! My project 365 days failed! I’m nearly at the end, what happened!?? Blame the CAT! Meow!!! Holy Cow! No worries, still have 2011 to go! Hoping for the best year ahead! 2010, not a good year for me!  Certainly it was!! Still, I’m gonna stand and be brave to whatever crisis you slap on my face!! Brand new life kickstarts next year!

Will try to update this blog more frequently….

PHOTO: @ Gondola